In June I decided to vacate my 4 bedroom home in San Pedro because I would be leaving on a month long vacation in July and at the end of August I would be heading to Basic Officer Leader Course (BOLC). BOLC is a 9-week course that is required for all new officers who have commissioned in the Army. For as long as I can remember this has been something that I have always envisioned doing. When I joined the military commissioning was not an option and it was something that I always wanted to do but never knew how or when it would come to pass.
I put all my things in storage moved in my four children and myself with my mother and went on vacation to Puerto Rico and the Dominican Republic. Being away with my children for the first time in four years was so therapeutic. Seeing them happy was worth everything that I had been through the last three years. The first week was spent in Old San Juan Puerto Rico and was spent with my children and dedicated to them. The next week I visited the beautiful country of Dominican Republic along with my father and children. From the moment I arrived, I felt at home and a sense of peace. My entire life I had been searching for something which I could never pinpoint and thought changing careers, sex, and living life on the edge would fulfill it. However, none of that worked and for years felt lost. But it was in DR that I found what I was searching for my entire life.
Leaving the Dominican Republic was bittersweet. Finding what I had no idea I was searching for was gold (I will share more in a later blog). I spent the rest of the vacation in Isla Verde, PR with no specific plans and took it day by day, as it came. I slept in many days, did nothing and best of all spent days bonding with my children. We visited museums, went bike riding and laid on the beach. Arriving in California I was reenergized and ready for the 9-week military training that lied ahead.
The only other time I had left my children for an extended period of time was when I left to Basic Training and Advanced Individual Training. This was, of course, a bit difficult for me because the last time I left and came back from military training was when my life had drastically changed. However, I was more at ease because my children were with my mother. Still, this decision came at a very high cost for all of us, except we all knew the reasoning for it and as a family agreed it was worth what the outcome would be.
Not knowing anyone or what to expect was a bit difficult but I immediately met someone I instantly connected with. She definitely made the whole experience more bearable. Throughout these past nine weeks, I have learned so much about myself. I would definitely say that the words “a plan without action is just a wish” couldn’t ring truer. I remember wanting this, dreaming about this day, not knowing how or when it would happen but trusting that God would work it out the way it was supposed to be. BOLC was intense, more mentally than physically but I successfully completed it. Finishing strong is the best feeling in the world. Now that I had the privilege of completing this training I can focus and finish what I started. New blog to follow shortly.
Let me start off by saying I want to apologize for being MIA. After attending Landmark I learned that integrity is a huge part of shaping your life. If you cannot keep your word to yourself, how can we expect for anything else in your life to work? When I began my journey of this campaign I inspired women to take part and they agreed in hopes that I would share their stories. Many of these women had never publicly shared their stories and allowed me the privilege to share their story and in a way, I feel like I let them down. However, I refuse to not stay true to my word and stay true to my purpose of sharing the stories of amazing women who overcome everyday struggles.
Also in Bold Ascension
After the domestic incident between my ex-husband and I, social services were referred to our home. I remember being so irritated thinking, what did my kids have to do with him putting hands on me, he had never hurt the kids. The social worker came by to my house several times and I kept dodging her visits.
Forgiveness can be a very difficult thing to do and I honestly never thought I was capable of forgiving when it came to certain things. Forgiveness is giving up resentment toward someone who has wronged you