Early today I was having a conversation with a friend and we were talking about all the changes that have happened in my life. As I reflected back on my journey, I realized that I have come a long way and although I am not where I want to be, I have to give myself credit for how far I’ve come. These last two years have been the most difficult two years of my life.
Moving back to California to no job, no car, no home was a very humbling experience. There were many times we did not have enough money to eat, so I would skip meals to make sure my kids had enough food, shopping at the 99 cent store was a must, and having to get hand-me downs from people at church became the norm. I do not say this to get sympathy from anyone but I say this to express upon you that I know the struggle, the struggle was very real for me. However, I did not allow that to hold me down, I knew that this too shall pass and it did. I held on to my faith and looked forward, focused on where I wanted to be instead of where I was.
I got to California in March, moved in to my sisters one bedroom with my four kids, then with my mom and two younger kids, while my two oldest stayed with my sister. By July I had my own place, a four bedroom home for my children and I. Knowing that my kids were able to have their own room was the greatest feeling. I had no idea how I was going to pay for the rent all by myself and yet I’ve managed. Sixteen months later I’m still here and have never been late on my rent. Trust me when I say I was so scared and nervous not knowing how I was going to make ends meet but when I made the decision to move here I knew it was going to work out. Again I did not know how but I did not worry about the how. I stayed grounded on my faith and God has provided beyond measures. So whenever you’re scared just jump and trust me the net will appear.